Stumble in the Stairs

Lämnad ensam i huset på 38 Fishponds Road är jag också lämnad mycket tid att fundera och grubbla. Jag har nog sett på det mesta som hänt den senaste tiden från alla perspektiv som är möjliga, men fortfarande vet jag ingenting. Inga förklaringar, ingen logik, inga svar. Hoppas på att få mer klarhet genom att komma hem och möta allt jag lämnade... eller snarare flydde ifrån. Har dock en känsla av att lärdomen det är meningen att jag ska dra av det här är att det inte alltid finns svar...men jag hoppas fortfarande. Tills dess lyssnar jag på Joni Mitchell konstant, antar att det är den enda kärlek jag vet är helt äkta just nu ;)

I've looked at life from both sides now and I realize, I really don't know clouds, love or life at all.



Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, i've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone
So many things i would have done but clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions i recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real; i've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show. you leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions i recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions i recall
I really don't know life at all